Why this blog?

“Tattooed Executive” - What’s that mean anyways?

Well, where do I start? Why did I choose tattooed executive as the domain name? Well, one I am a tattooed executive and two, the contradictory nature of being in an executive position yet being tattooed is somewhat of a correlation to my life. When people see me externally, they someone who “has it all together”. A great family, a long successful career. Someone who’s in really great shape, someone who’s an influencer a motivator, well respected and so forth…yet, internally I’m in a constant struggle to keep it all together. This goes back to some early childhood trauma and over 30+ years, I’ve learned to “play the part” pretty well. So I suppose the irony with being a tattooed executive is I might be polished and put together on the outside as far as what most would perceive of my life yet I am broken and struggling on the inside. In my career, I put on my shirt and tie, suit jacket and no one sees the tattoos (which are all very meaningful) so its the same “polished and put together? externally concept…

So the blog……first off, I’m going to remain anonymous for the time being. Secondly, after relunctlanty going to therapy most of my childhood and adolescence, I’ve recently chosen to go on my own terms in my late 30’s. I’ve just finally reached the point where I feel my life depends on confronting my demons and finding some peace. In this blog, I’ll document my journey. I might jump back in time and talk about early issues, I might go completely off topic and talk about something I’m pursuing on physically or creative in nature. I don’t know…All I know is I had a feeling that this might be somewhat therapeutic for me and help to keep me be “present”. Secondly, mental health is a real thing and when its not good, it can be a scary thing. I’ve been there - many times…and I as a successful “alpha male” its not easy to admit to it, talk about it or even think about it as it requires extreme vulnerability and society isn’t always accepting or that.

If no one reads this, then its simply been a fulfilling project for me. If one person reads it and encourages them to seek help, gives them hope or perhaps they share it with a friend or family member who might be struggling and it gives that person some hope, then I’ll feel accomplished. That’s all…..